Since I'm incredibly random and have the most wonderful A.D.D. at Whole Foods, I've been transitioning to a raw food diet for a week now. I'm incredibly enthusiastic about it and think I'm in love with raw foodism. Gah <3. Today I ate 100% raw (woot!) and now at almost 1 am, I find myself with too much energy. I'll post pictures and recipes of the yummy food I made today and in the past week sometime tomorrow.
Must Sleep.
Soon.
Why raw? Why not? For some reason, as I was walking up and down aisles at different grocery stores, raw food made sense. Foods that heal your body and taste delicious? Sign me up. Only a week of eating mostly raw (about 70-75% of my food was raw) and my skin has almost completely cleared up. The only make-up I've felt the need to wear is eye shadow, eye liner, mascara, and strawberry flavored lip balm. I would layer on the foundation and powder to cover up blemishes and any discoloration underneath my eyes. I hate feeling the need to hide any part of myself behind anything. I'm not too keen on restrictions we place on ourselves because we're on some sort of auto-pilot that tells us hiding is normal.
My skin isn't the only part of me to begin healing since I began to eat raw. I have (not so secretly) struggled with an eating disorder on and off for 9 years now. Wow. Almost a decade of harming my body. I haven't really thought about how many years it's been until now. No wonder I get so bloated so often, my digestive system must go through terrible periods of inflammation or I may just have some symptoms of IBS; it doesn't take a doctor to figure out what bulimia does to your body. Fortunately, I've been in recovery for 6 of those 9 long years. I go through periods where I can quiet the ED demon successfully and don't have urges to binge and purge or restrict, but there are occasions where I start to lose myself, my confidence, and become depressed. Moments like these worry me and should never happen because I'm wasting precious time and energy on something so negative. It's only been in the past few years that I've discovered and believe in the enormous potential I have to do something great with myself despite the adversity (with more than just my disordered eating) in the past. When I think of myself objectively, I see I wonderful human being that needs to stop being so afraid of having other people see that. I wouldn't attract other amazing people into my life (whom I unfortunately tend to push away during my "low" periods) that recognize the same amazing qualities in myself if those qualities weren't, too, a part of me.
My mind and spirit seem to be healing too. I don't feel the need to binge... it's difficult to when you feel full from fiber and healthy fats. I'm much happier and have gone back to meditating. I smile just because. I'm loving every part of my life and everything that comes my way, whether it's good or bad, and I thank God or whatever energy that connects everything for it. I'm transforming myself from the inside out... because I need to physically and emotionally save my life.
Must Sleep.
Soon.
Why raw? Why not? For some reason, as I was walking up and down aisles at different grocery stores, raw food made sense. Foods that heal your body and taste delicious? Sign me up. Only a week of eating mostly raw (about 70-75% of my food was raw) and my skin has almost completely cleared up. The only make-up I've felt the need to wear is eye shadow, eye liner, mascara, and strawberry flavored lip balm. I would layer on the foundation and powder to cover up blemishes and any discoloration underneath my eyes. I hate feeling the need to hide any part of myself behind anything. I'm not too keen on restrictions we place on ourselves because we're on some sort of auto-pilot that tells us hiding is normal.
My skin isn't the only part of me to begin healing since I began to eat raw. I have (not so secretly) struggled with an eating disorder on and off for 9 years now. Wow. Almost a decade of harming my body. I haven't really thought about how many years it's been until now. No wonder I get so bloated so often, my digestive system must go through terrible periods of inflammation or I may just have some symptoms of IBS; it doesn't take a doctor to figure out what bulimia does to your body. Fortunately, I've been in recovery for 6 of those 9 long years. I go through periods where I can quiet the ED demon successfully and don't have urges to binge and purge or restrict, but there are occasions where I start to lose myself, my confidence, and become depressed. Moments like these worry me and should never happen because I'm wasting precious time and energy on something so negative. It's only been in the past few years that I've discovered and believe in the enormous potential I have to do something great with myself despite the adversity (with more than just my disordered eating) in the past. When I think of myself objectively, I see I wonderful human being that needs to stop being so afraid of having other people see that. I wouldn't attract other amazing people into my life (whom I unfortunately tend to push away during my "low" periods) that recognize the same amazing qualities in myself if those qualities weren't, too, a part of me.
My mind and spirit seem to be healing too. I don't feel the need to binge... it's difficult to when you feel full from fiber and healthy fats. I'm much happier and have gone back to meditating. I smile just because. I'm loving every part of my life and everything that comes my way, whether it's good or bad, and I thank God or whatever energy that connects everything for it. I'm transforming myself from the inside out... because I need to physically and emotionally save my life.
I was initially concerned about an "extreme" way of eating and restricting what I eat, but luckily I have very little anxiety over what I eat nowadays. If I want to indulge in something not raw here and there I won't stop myself :)
The world is more beautiful than we can imagine... when I stay positive, I tend to run into more positive people and places.
As one of my favorite songs by Incubus states:
"I suggest we learn to love
ourselves before it's made illegal."
...because everything is funny and/or beautiful.
...to me anyways :)
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